Too Lazy to be a Villainess - Chapter 360
Chapter 360: One Step Behind
[Haldor’s POV—Imperial Training Hall—Moments Later]
The sound of steel vanished. Not because the knights stopped—but because I stopped hearing it.
Her words echoed once. Twice.
“I guess… I have to look for a husband for me.”
The world tilted.
For a fraction of a second, I thought I had misheard. That the clang of blades or the shouts of instructors had swallowed part of her sentence. That surely—surely—those words were not meant the way they sounded.
I turned toward her slowly.
Too slowly.
She stood with her arms crossed, gaze fixed on the training floor, jaw set in that way she wore when she was bracing herself against something she hated but refused to flee from.
Calm.
Composed.
Imperial.
My chest tightened.
“A… husband,” I repeated quietly, testing the word as if it might break apart if I spoke it aloud.
She nodded once.
Just once.
As if that single motion carried the weight of an empire.
“The nobles won’t let it go,” she said evenly. “Succession laws. Bloodlines. Heirs. They’re already circling like carrion birds.”
I swallowed.
The thought of them—those same nobles who trembled before her sword and smiled behind fans—deciding her future made something dark coil in my stomach.
“And your father?” I asked, though I already knew the answer.
She huffed softly. “Papa would burn the council chamber to ash before handing me over to a political marriage.” Then—quieter, heavier—”But even he can’t fight the law forever.”
The clang of steel resumed its meaning.
Strike. Parry. Clash.
War made sense. This did not.
I looked at her—really looked at her. At the woman who had conquered a kingdom in a month. At the girl who carried her father’s fury and her mother’s loneliness in equal measure. At the crown princess, who stood between duty and desire like she had been trained for it since birth.
And something inside me… broke its silence.
“Do you want one?” I asked before I could stop myself.
She turned.
Her eyes met mine—sharp, surprised, searching.
“A husband,” I clarified, my voice steadier than I felt. “Is that what you want, Your Highness?”
For a moment, she didn’t answer.
The training hall roared around us—metal on metal, shouted commands, boots on stone—but the space between us felt painfully quiet.
“No,” she said at last.
The word landed cleanly.
Honest.
“No,” she repeated, softer now. “What I want has never mattered in matters like this.”
My fists clenched at my sides.
“That’s not true,” I said immediately.
She smiled at me then.
Not teasing. Not amused.
Tired.
“It is,” she replied gently. “I was born with a crown over my cradle, Haldor. Every choice I make belongs to more than just me.”
I took a step closer before I realized I had moved.
“Then let them find someone worthy,” I said, heat slipping into my voice. “Someone who understands what it means to stand beside you. Someone who won’t try to cage you.”
Her gaze softened.
“That,” she said quietly, “is exactly what frightens them.”
Silence stretched again—thick, dangerous.
I opened my mouth.
Closed it.
Because there were a thousand things I wanted to say—and none of them were allowed.
Choose me. I would never cage you. I would bleed before I broke you.
Instead, I bowed my head slightly, forcing the storm back behind discipline.
“As your captain,” I said, voice controlled, “I will support whatever decision you make.”
She studied me for a long moment.
Then she nodded.
“I know you will.”
That was the cruelest part.
She trusted me.
She always trusted me…yet she doesn’t choose me.
The instructor shouted for a break. Knights lowered their weapons. The sound faded to murmurs and movement.
She turned back toward the training floor, eyes sharp again—alive with that familiar fire.”Do you want to spar with me?” she asked.
For a heartbeat, the weight in my chest loosened.
I followed her without hesitation, hand settling on my weapon as naturally as breathing.”It will be my honor, Your Highness.”
She smiled—not the tired one from moments ago, but the dangerous, exhilarated curve she wore before a fight.
And as we stepped onto the mat together, blades rising, stances aligning, I understood something with terrifying clarity:
If I couldn’t fight the empire for her, then I would fight with her. Even if this was the only place I was allowed to stand.
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[Lavinia’s POV—Imperial Training Hall—After the Spar]
CLANG!!!
STRIKE!!!
I surged forward suddenly, blade flashing toward his side.
He reacted instantly—too instantly. Instead of countering, he twisted, taking the strike on the flat of his blade and angling his body between me and an imaginary threat.
I stopped.
So did he.
Our swords hovered inches apart. His chest rose once, sharply. I looked at him—not as a ruler, not as a warrior—but as the man who had just proven my fear correct.
“Haldor,” I said quietly, lowering my blade, “you’re still guarding me.”
His jaw tightened. “It’s instinct.”
“I didn’t ask for a shield,” I said. “I asked for a fight.”
Silence stretched—tight, electric.
Then something shifted in his gaze.
He exhaled.
And when he lifted his sword again, it was different.
No restraint.
No mercy.
No hesitation.
“Yes, Your Highness,” he said softly.
And then—he came at me like a storm. I laughed, breathless and bright, as I met him head-on.
This—this was what I needed.
Not councils. Not husbands. Not heirs whispered like threats.
Just this moment.
Two blades.One truth.
And a man who finally—finally—fought me as my equal.
The final strike rang out—and then silence.
Not the awkward kind. The reverent kind.
My breath came fast, heat rushing through my veins, sweat cooling along my spine. I lowered my blade slowly, the echo of steel still humming in my bones.
Haldor did the same.
For a heartbeat, we simply stood there—two warriors suspended in the aftermath, the space between us alive with everything unsaid. Around us, the knights exhaled as if they had been holding their breath the entire time. Someone muttered a quiet, stunned curse. The instructor cleared his throat again and declared the spar finished, far too loudly.
I barely heard him.
Haldor stepped closer, sheathing his sword with precise movements that didn’t quite hide the tension in his shoulders. Then—without ceremony—he held out a towel.
“For you, Your Highness,” he said.
I took it, fingers brushing his for the briefest second.
Warm.
I wiped my face, my neck, and the edge of sweat along my jaw. When I lowered the towel and looked at him—He was looking at me the way he had that night.
The victory ball. Under chandeliers and stars. Right before the world had narrowed to a balcony… and a kiss.
His blue eyes were soft again. Not guarded. Not disciplined. Just open—quietly undone. As if he were seeing something dangerous and precious at the same time.
It made my chest tighten.
For a foolish, treacherous moment, the thought surfaced unbidden:
Should I choose him?
Not as my captain.Not as my shadow.But as my husband.
The idea settled—dangerous, warm, intoxicating.
He would be loyal. He would be steady. He would stand beside me without flinching, without scheming, without wanting my crown more than me.
And gods help me—he would love me in that quiet, devastating way that never asked for permission.
. . .
. . .
. . .
My grip tightened on the towel.
No.
The word cut sharp and immediately.
Because choosing him wouldn’t be a kindness. It would be a curse for him.
A captain married to a crown princess would never be free. Every command he gave would be questioned. Every victory he earned would be doubted. Every failure would be blamed on him. On favoritism. On love.
They would tear him apart with whispers long before blades ever touched him.
And worse—if I fell… he would fall with me.
I would not chain him to a future built on knives.
So I lifted my chin and smoothed my expression into something lighter and safer. Princess-perfect.
“You fought well,” I said calmly. “You always do.”
A flicker passed through his eyes—disappointment? Relief? Something unnamed. He straightened instantly, the moment closing like a door neither of us dared to knock on again.
“As did you, Your Highness,” he replied, voice steady once more. “It was… an honor.”
I handed the towel back.
“Come,” I said, turning away before my resolve could crack. “We have work to do.”
“Yes, Your Highness.”
His footsteps followed—faithful, measured, and exactly one step behind me.
As they always were. And as I walked away, crown heavy on my shoulders, I told myself I had made the right choice.
Even if my heart—traitorous, foolish thing—lingered behind for just a moment longer.
I did not know then.
I could not have known.
That this would be the last time I would see Haldor walking at my side like this—steady, loyal, alive.
That before dawn broke again, the man who had guarded me with his life would vanish without a trace.
And that the silence he would leave behind…would tear my world apart.